Say Yeah~In an Effie Mode Today : Reposting

I just felt like reposting today:Say Yeah… say yeah

By Jacquelyn Hughes Mooney©11

Say yeah...

Say yeah...

I say yeah.

Go down Moses… 

Tell Pharaoh that I'm in an Effie mode today...

This is a hand on the hip, gutbucket groan….

That can only come from someone who knows...

Who’s been there more then on time?

In a scene where she be on familiar terms with stuff…

And stuffed people who distinguish themselves with nothing other then

Bits & pieces

(It is not yet their time yet)…

But knows experiences trumps assumptions

And one does not know

But knows...

When it is time to say yeah...

Say yeah

Say yeah.

To do what is necessary

To see what's possible

And then pull off the impossible

When one must say yeah...

Say yeah...

Say yeah...

All Rights Reserved JHM 2-14-11©

I am taking a break this minute from doing & pushing, knocking on doors literally & figuratively.
And for whatever reason why, the song from the Broadway and the movie rendition of Dreamgirls popped in my head.


That determination, angst, anger clear, single-minded ferociousness so wonderfully done by both Jennifer Holiday (the original Effie) and Jennifer Hudson (movie version of Effie) said it all for me.


There's a point when you simply have to have that gut bucket hand on the hip un-huh yeah girl  soulfull-ness with no shame or concern for how anyone or anything view it. Or what they are doing.  It just need to be said or done.

"Say whatcha wanna, I'm not gonna leave ya..."

"I just wanna be free.."

Singer India Arie

Step up or step back, or get otta my way...


Say yeah... Say yeah"...




For the record we can apply that to what each and every one of us are doing here, or any "here" that you are working on.

"Start by doing what is necessary, then by what's possible, & suddenly you are doing the impossible"


"Say yeah... say yeah"...

Old Mill at the End of Park~Photography by Jackie Walker©09 France

Way to Hold~Even with Evidence to the Contrary

This is one of those mornings, not unlike a lot of others who have these mornings, when one is working on maintaining when there's an abundance of evidence to the contrary of not knowing the way out of something.


It's been a struggle for several months of trying to cope with how to preserve & survive when there is no income, when you have people who seem to thrive on exploitation, indifference, selfishness and (yes I said it) downright idiocy. 

What does one do when people renege on their agreements, not out of inability to care for it, but just blithely go along totally unconcerned about how their actions can cause harm (sometimes minor) other times major that can affect your ability to even maintain shelter, sleep or peace of mind...


What do you do? 


Well sometimes that answer that you think should be  on the surface appears to be however to be blowing in the wind.


And it gets tiresome, mind-numbing and paralytic.

A wise New Yorker who I love her witticisms said last week:

"Opportunities do not come in door size--they come in window size. You have to maneuver your way through that window because if the hinge breaks and it shuts on you, it can crush you". Denise Feistymama

It is now about how to maneuver so one cannot be crushed. "cept sometimes the energy or the strength is no longer there to maneuver.


No I am not depressed; just tired & right now today things look bleak.

Those people who have renege on their obligations have caused a situation that was already tenuous at best to crumble even more.  I cannot even pay for shelter because of this disregard for obligations.  Seems I've been here before like there is this big old rubber band that I cannot find where it is attached on my body, that I can get just so far and then POW, you get snatched back...


Yes it is my responsibility, its my life; I've heard every justification under the sun & you know what y'all?  It ain't helping! 


Again I say this is not a situation(s) where there is an inability to pay but part of the "if its not happening to me, it is not happening" mentality... And I am the one paying for it.  It energy, drive, determination & will was money, I would rival Winfrey, Gates and a host of others in wealth.


An example of this is being chewed out by someone who has more then one occasion has "reminded" of seemingly (or being a legend in her own mind) of my "failure" to provide for myself and her success in doing the same. Her purpose was clear...

She didn't get the response she wanted from me...


This is not someone who I have counted in as a friend yet; it is unfortunately someone I cannot avoid because of proximity.  She had attempted to befriend me several months ago right before I went in for surgery and I thought she would have been a new friend who in some way shared a commonality because she also had some health challenges. And I naively believed we could be of a mutual support.


Nope...


But I see now that she was one of those who has an uncanny instinct to ferret out ones who seem vulnerable to feast upon their trials not for support but to bolster herself.


So yesterday, I fired her.


She made a huge mistake in underestimating that no matter how vulnerable I may seem at the moment, I do have a strong core of healthy self-esteem.  I am always open to giving people the benefit of the doubt especially when you are first getting to know someone, but then after awhile there is no mistake...


Or benefit.


So despite her way to go, despite others who have a lack of regard...


And all the evidence to the contrary, there is always a way out of no way!  Sometimes it is just harder to find it then others...

Tell that to my landlord that I will find a way; tell that when you have to maintain even the basics with nothing but air, hope & prayer.  People won't listen let alone HEAR you because if it is not happening to them; it is not happening.

So as my very smart & savvy New Yorker friend also say:

‎"I never get over most things but I learn to get around them."-Denise Feistymama

And that is what I must do today, tomorrow & the next. 


 As a sidebar, a silver sliver, I submitted several of my poems to O magazine who put a call out for original poetry for their April 2011 issue.  This was on impulse yesterday evening, listening to my gut..


Everything has a beginning & an end...  So I will end this now, so I can focus on what I need, I must do.

You're never beaten until you admit it.~George S. Patton

You don't drown by falling in the water. You drown by staying there.~Unknown Author

You don't realize how strong a person really is until you see them at their weakest moment.~Unknown Author

Focus

The doors we open and close each day decide the lives we live.
- Flora Whittemore, author

Small steps that lead us to achievement

There are natural consequences that accompany every choice we make in life. Some opportunities inevitably pass us by, but we can take advantage of others. Many people feel powerless, but this is rarely the case--some opportunities just require a little thinking outside the box. Today, reflect on the doors you are opening in your world and which ones are closing. You have the power to create the life you want if you are willing to set goals and take steps toward them. Rarely does fulfilling our hopes and dreams happen overnight, but you can take one tiny move towards them each day.

Ready...set...G R O W ! ~from Jewel Diamond Taylor

by Self-esteem Dr. Jewel Diamond Taylor

http://www.jewelmotivaves.com/

Founder of Women on the Grow, Conference Speaker, Author and Life Coach

"See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland". Isaiah 43:19 (NIV)

As you make room for God to do a new thing in your life, you must have the courage to do a "new thing" for yourself. Growth requires pressing, consistency, dedication, purpose and courage. Don't wait until you are sick and tired of being sick, tired, broke, lonely, stuck, abused, invisible, frustrated and desperate.

It's time to do a new thing!

If you have been quiet... it's time to speak up.

If you have been isolated and shy... it's time get out, socialize, network and meet new people.

If you have been a spender... it's time to be a saver.

If you have been discouraged... it's time to get up and be grateful.

If you have been a receiver, it's time to be a giver.

If you've been procrastinating... it's time to take action.

If you've been angry and holding a grudge, it's time to let go.

If you have never ventured beyond your local area... it's time to travel.

If you think it's too late for you...it's time to change your thinking and self-worth.

If you have been stuck on stupid... it's time to walk in wisdom and integrity.

If you have always been the giver... it's time learn how to receive.

If you seek escape and comfort in the wrong places and things...it's time to learn how to cope in healthy and smarter ways.

If you receive invitations to gossip or argue...it's time to decline the invitation.

If you are always wearing your superwo(man) cape... it's time to delegate.

If you worry too much... it's time to start trusting God.

If you are always late and unorganized... it's time to start being punctual and reliable.

If you have been prideful, closed and defensive... it's time to be teachable.

If you are afraid to learn how to drive, use the computer, learn a new language, go salsa dancing, start your own business, tell the grown children to move out, go on an audition or interview or find a new church home that really feeds your spirit, teaches the word of God and blesses the community...it's time to do a new thing!

God wants to do a "new thing" in your life...but first you have to rid yourself of clutter, fear, limited thinking, poor choices and clinging to what is familiar, safe and comfortable.

Ready...set...G R O W !